Motivations (trying to understand myself) - just some thoughts.

However it is hard to understand ourselves sometimes (do we really know who are we?), i'm trying to find the answer concerning my motivators e.g. in photography.

I would like to share one of them:

The outer world continuously influencing us. It can create a so strong and direct result (e.g. photojournalism), and can plant a silent core as well that can grow internally.

- "Silent" influences are small snippets many times. Puzzles from the fairy tales, books, paintings, movies, historical events. They are not too direct, but building theirselves step by step until they became more important and want to born finally.
I have several cores inside and they coming into my mind as real pictures after they grow enough.
"Painting"/pulling these pictures from my imagination/brain are important to me. Not just the result, but the process as well. More and more details coming into the surface as i start to "paint" them and it is great to see and realize what was inside originally. The "painted" result not only showing the whole one (because of technical and other limitations), naturally. Since of the construction phase is a journey itself, it is very important to me.